Well I did something new and different. Maybe it is a pathway for me to discover myself slowly without interfering into someone else's life. I sent off for a Family Tree DNA kit and submitted last Friday. I got an email saying that they had received it. At least I can find out what my country of origin might have been, instead of my ex calling me a wetback. When we were married, he called me his little wetback. Yes it bugged me.
This time I have promised myself that I would take it slower and not let anyone push me into a direction where I am not comfortable. I will take this all in my time. Since Family Tree DNA is in Houston, I will probably get the results sooner. I will savor the moment that I receive the information. I will go from there at that point.