My Girls

I find myself quietly listening to them talk. I don't respond like I used to. I have to be this way because if I don't, I will get defensive. Defensive is not a good thing. Fighting back from that posture has put me already behind. I understand that I must be proactive. That is why I keep every email and text message from my girls and their father. It is all documented proof of what is going on.

I have to deal with many sides to this. His mother blasts me in front of the girls. I can't get away from that. I have to deal with him playing mind games and lying. I have to deal with him breaking the judge's orders. I have to pay the price of all of it.

The whole situation is so unfair and corrupt that I do not even know where to begin to fight it. Since my email account was hacked through illegal means, I have learned to immediately delete any and every email that I might send. I have learned to quietly listen instead of responding in angry tones. I have learned to record phone calls despite it all.

I have been quietly continuing my battle despite what others believe that I have been conquered. I have not been. I will not give up on my daughters.